Real Talk: There’s a reason it’s been quiet(er) here

I’ve started this post three different ways now and select-all-deleted three times. No weird intro needed, here’s the deal: I feel like I’ve said what I have to say about nutrition, for now.

It’s either been quiet on this page or I’ve given you pointless “blah blah blah, in five!” posts because that’s easy to do. I look back at the past six months and am mostly proud of finally speaking up, but also see relapses into the things that require less mental energy, which gives you less value.

Back it up

In January I realized how jaded I was becoming about nutrition. Not so jaded that I wanted to shut it out; the opposite. I wanted to say the things I’d been thinking for a while but wasn’t sure they needed to be out in the world. Then I was just like, f*@k it, I’ll say it. Real talk. These (slightly altered) titles basically explain how my thoughts have evolved over the course of one year:

Now I get why it’s hard to get it.

And I think you should know: this dietitian experiments with food, too (aka, “beat the bloat”)

On remembering to be a beginner, not the expert

Confession: I hardly ever cook with recipes

FYI: I’m a dietitian but no, I don’t care what you’re eating

I don’t weigh myself (nope, not ever); I do eat a lot of fat

And I’m not into using the word healthy. Period.

Here’s the deal—I ask these five questions, and then eat.

OK, sass jar full and a few “big” issues covered: check!
What now?
Dig a little deeper.

There’s much more than that.

I do love me some real talk, but really there is a desire to be really fucking straight with you: no one is, ever was or ever will be, perfect. We can’t expect that of anyone, nor should we. I wanted to be clear that my story is not unique or uncommon, and that’s the issue. If I want that to change—for women to feel less isolated in any given journey, whether/not it’s similar to mine, and to feel more supported, knowledgeable, and a part of their own care—I can start by turning to what I know, and writing it out. Telling the story. So, then I did that.

I wrote about my bumps in the road to {RD/young adulthood/owning the story}.

It started with a need to control all the things, or at least one thing, as many stories do (but we soon realize nothing is meant to be static).

And it ended with a realization that there are certain relationships—with food, people, ourselves, etc— that will require effort but will not feel like work. We hold onto those, and let go of the rest.

So, let’s make it whole.

That was a good start, but that’s not the full, real, story. And that’s not fair. So, I had a chat with myself and was like OKAY FINE HERE IT IS.

I was amenorrheic for six years. There isn’t a simple solution to that, but it is reversible. This is what worked for me. I don’t know exactly what will work for you. I do know that what most people aren’t talking about? Is stress. That’s a game-changer, no matter what else is going on with you.

And then…I tapped out.

I could come back here every week and decipher media headlines with pseudo-news that reeled you in with the clickbait title and then provided little-to-no valuable information or even a link to the real study so you could decide for yourself.

I could list the “top nutrition things!” people tend to question and start a series of posts on that.

I could post the salads I make for lunch most days, full of whatever vegetables I’ve chopped and leftovers I’ve added.

I could do a number of things that fill this “Real Talk {about Nutrition!}” space, but that doesn’t feel authentic to me right now. Most of those posts would ultimately have the same, boring message: eat real food, and maybe some other things that you enjoy. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Loosen up. Stress less. Do, say, eat and drink whatever makes you happy and makes you feel good (not lethargic, too drunk, bloated, crampy, etc.). Tune into those feels, it’s a language that your body makes pretty easy to understand, we just ignore it too often to become fluent. It’s not simple, but it’s doable. I promise you that.

Right now, that doesn’t inspire me. Maybe it will again sometime soon. 

What is interesting, to me?

Our personalities. Our stories. The reasons we behave the way we do. Habits. Hardships. Travels. Other cultures. Running. The slightly terrifying state of our presidential election. Writing from a place of curiosity, not just career.

So, FWIW, here’s where I am.

Writing has become a non-negotiable part of my day, but for now, most of those ramblings don’t feel like they belong here. So I’m going to leave this space alone until that changes. In the meantime, I am rambling often on Overserved (Medium), podcasting, and in all the social places. And my inbox is open, always.

Comments

  1. July 22, 2016

    I’ve really loved reading your recent posts so I’ll be following along on Overserved- sounds like it will be really interesting! Thanks for being so open and sharing your personal thoughts and stories <3

  2. July 24, 2016

    Heather- I have been following your blog for a number of years now- your blog caught my interest initially because I am also a dietitian who loves to run. And I have been an RD for 26 longggggg years. I have experienced burnout multiple times over….it gets old saying the same things over and over again to people who always seem to already know what to do or how to do it better because DR OZ said so.
    But consider this–people NEED your reasonable messages and the reassurance you offer them -that they are making the best choices for themselves- and they do appreciate that validation! They appreciate those new ideas you have in the form of a recipe or new food to try! I know I do! You are young and inspirational and have the awesome gift of word! Don’t leave for too long- you will be missed!

  3. Amy
    July 28, 2016

    love, love, love this post. I get jaded on nutrition alone too, it’s why I’m getting my masters in social work to pair with my RD. I want to the know the story behind the food and so much more 🙂

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